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Saturday, July 4, 2009 12:51 PM
most oddest dream ever. my period still hasnt come and lately, ive been acting really attitude-y- angry and such. the littlest things just tick me off and then it adds frustration to the people i yell at and of course, myself. so im gonna just try to not speak. about the dream: it was in a good tech class but set in a normal classroom. i think we were baking cookies. the teacher (man teach.- looked like mr.sammut sr) put up a chart of level1's highpoint performing place. there was going to be a performance (symphony people) for us kids at the place so we had to place our names on the chart on where we would want to sit. i went up and decided to sit in the front cause no one was sitting there. there were these two kids sitting on the side of the chart and they kept shaking the chart- i coudlnt write my name up. then i got really peeved off, i swore at their faces- "FCKIN HELL!" they got scared and left. then i tried to write my name again but then there was this guy standing behind it, looking somewhere else but hitting the chart as well. i swore at him but then i left and went back to my place to sit. i swore again and then the people around the table looked up from what they were doing and stared at me. i swore so loud that everyone heard. i apologised and the teacher looked at me, smiled and told me to come to him. he pointed out to a student and said "he has been screamed at 3 times today." i sincerely apologised and then i woke up from the dream. weird right? i think it was last night or maybe today, i found this huge dot (kinda like a mosquito bite) on my back and whenever i touch it, it kills. i think its like an anger boile (is that right?). it was s hown on the simpsons with that episode where bart makes a comic of "anger dad" but it was actually of homer and he felt like he had anger issues and so he started to hide his anger and instead, this bumps come up on his neck. what if im turing into something like that? holy crow, im freakin out now. everything bad is happening to me this holidays. ill explain after i eat. ----------------- ok, so 1. pimples have multiplied over the holiday 2. laziness has overcome me 3. sleeping till early morning 4. waking up till afternoon 5. oily hair 6. ruined nails 7. gotten sick 8. no period 9. anger bolt! 10. my eczema is slowly coming back all of these have their own explanations: 1. havent cleansed myself as much as i do normally: eating too much junk foods 2. its the holidays 3. DVD marathons and generally watching tv 4. due to the DVD marathons and generally watching tv 5. i dont take baths everyday anymore 6. no idea why thats a stuff up 7. sister 8. my sleeping times and waking up times have constantly changed and so has my period 9. no idea 10. havent been putting on cream when i was eating lunch just now, every word coming out of my mouth was angry words. i feel so bad. i really need to change but i cant. i was looking through the mina mags i borrowed (new ones btw. months 2-6 of 2009) i decided to start to make a list of the stuff i want: PANTS: - Black jeans___________for theatre arts - Long overalls - L.blue jeans - Cargo pants - Adidas tracks - Black shorts__________for the social TOPS: - Long knitted shirt/dress - Granny l/sleve top - Baseball tee - Wooly skivvy JACKETS: - Sporty jacket_________not those adidas ones - Long knitted jacket - Puffy outdoor jacket SHOES: - Jupiter shoes_________kinda like tied up boots - Dr. Martens shoes in silver or brown OTHER: - Backpack - Granny socks/legwarmers - Scrunchy im reading on how to gain weight. its pretty funny. those ways to lose weight is pretty much to how to gain weight. eating fruits and vegies, weightlifting- its a good way to gain weight! i just looked up on why my period is late. it can be caused by stress, being underweight, changes in schedules and illness. and also others but these are the ones that im focussing on. +i feel like i am stressed, thats why ive been upset lately and the changes in scehdules- my body clock is stuffed up now thanks to harry potter. +the underweight part- i checked my BMI and it is bad. i got a 17. i have to get 19+ to be an average. +illness- i am sick with a cold, cough. but not that serious. when they said illness i think they mean like hospital illness types. so ill just take that out. so now im gonna have to gain weight, and sleep at a steady time and waking up at a steady time. the weight gaining part: ive gone through about 3 sites and it all generally says the same stuff but different words. i should take in more foods with high calories, vitamins and minerals opposed to high in fat and sugars. and it says i should drink juices that a mixed so i get in more calories. pretty smart. ill give all this a try and see. i need to gain like 6KG to reach 48KG. trust me, it wont go for long cause im so lazy and everything. man i need to go to the library but its so cold. currently reading parfait tic! <$BlogItemBody$> |
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